Dear Lyle:
a.m. Today started early, but not bright. It snowed last night. Nothing stuck on the sidewalk, just on the grass. But, what did fall on the driveway and walk froze, so I was out before the sun was up to spread salt all over the ice rink on the driveway. I've considered it a modern miracle and a special blessing and gift to me personally that it's been the driest winter on record.....ever. With all the other emotions and sorrows, I've dreaded having to shovel the walks and ice them all the time. It would just be one more thing on my daunting list that is life right now. And, according to my need, the storms have come, they've split right over South Jordan and they've gone other places. Others don't believe me when I say it was a personal miracle just for me. But, I believe. I know what's in my heart, and beginning to experience the awesome power of our Heavenly Father. Brother Schwendamen wants to come and shovel our walks or help in some way....really bad. So much so, he came for 2 hours a week ago, in the cold and dark and took down all the Christmas lights. The boys (Brandon and Abe) had said they would, but they weren't getting to it fast enough for my needs, so the Lord provided. Isn't it amazing how he does that for us? Has he provided for you in your need? I'm beginning to hope that he has.
This morning, like so many recently, Chace is driving me crazy. He's going through this screech, whiny, I hate everything, even the things I love phase. I've never seen a kid do it so completely and annoyingly. Although Chace has done EVERYTHING more completely and thoroughly than any other child I've seen. God give me the strength and patience to make it through and love him despite his screech.
I haven't heard from Brittany concerning Gabby. I'm going to call soon to see how she's doing.
Afternoon: Another preschool, another nap time, another work day nearly over. Angela has gone for the day, now there's just 4. I miss you and I'm scared.
PM: Spent the evening with Kara. She needed to buy a modest skirt because she's been attending church with me and her skirts not only embarrass me, but they've made her feel uncomfortable. We got two really cute skirts, one black, one gray and a gray sweater. She took me to dinner. We went to Tio's. We were talking to the wife of the owner and saying how we started going when Kara was born. Asked about Moses. He's back in Mexico. We also talked about you, Kara and I did. We miss you and want to be able to talk to you. We know you're scared, so are we. We also went on our first post office/coupon run since December 2nd. It was good to be fishing through the post office recycle again, but it just made me think of you and all the times we went to find coupons. I can't do anything without thinking of you. Xander said the same thing to me tonight. He dreamed about you last night. You had come home and had a mad/sad face, but when you saw him walking home towards you, you got a happy face on. I told him that is exactly what it's like right now. Dad has a mad/sad face on cause he can't see you, but as soon as he sees you walking towards him, he's going to have the happiest face. He cried and said he thinks of you all the time, even when he's at school or playing.
So, it's time for bed. I've cut a few coupons out, and read scriptures to the children and then did my own scripture study. The spirit has blessed me so tremendously, because I understand the words in the Book of Mormon that I'm reading, and the Holy Ghost has whispered soft words of understanding and a witness it is true. I am so thankful to have the Holy Ghost with me.
Shauna
No comments:
Post a Comment